My cute Bushka!

Here is my fave pic of me and Erin at her Birthday. Also of the throne I gave her, which surprisingly it took a lot to get her to sit in it. She is so darn cute. What a huge blessing she is to our family and I am looking forward to Seth being born for another great blessing for us. Oh, for those who dont know I call Erin Bushka, I dont know why. It just came out one day and stuck. It is not anything russian, but it kind of sounds like Babuska which is the russian word for grandma. I am not calling her that. Anyways theres some usless info for you.

Nothing much going on

I noticed I haven't put any posts on for a while and thought I would write a little, but nothing new is happening. I like my job and learning more about being a teacher each day. I have been blessed so much by the Lord as many of you know that I don't have to pay all that money to COBRA because my insurance kicked in exactly 63 days after my last. I am so grateful for that. I have been stressing about it for a long time trying to figure out what I was going to do. The Lord has answered my prayers and I am truly humbled by it all. My dating life well, I have been trying to more, but I really just have no desire. I wish I did because I need to date, but the guys who are attracted to me now are, I don't know, not my type. There is the guy at work who is really nice that flirts with me and I would go out with him once if he asked me, but would never be more than friends with him. There is the newly divorced for one month guy that has two kids. I don't think I am emotionally mature to handle kids, a ex wife, and a newly dating man. Then there is the Provo boy and most of you know I am no Provo girl. I am not bad and I have a strong testimony, but I am a very open minded, accepting woman. Then there is the guy in West Jordan who I am a little more interested in, but I don't think he is as interested. Maybe I am making up excuses or maybe I am right. I don't know. It is that my heart is just not that into it for some reason. Believe me when I say I wish it was because I need to get out there and start over, but I really just have no desire. Anyways that is the update for now. The most exciting thing coming up is my beautiful niece's 2nd birthday. She is so cute and brings a lot of joy in my life. I absolutely adore her!!!!

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I am stressed!!

So last Friday I was in the staff room at my new job. I had my ipod on because I work better with music. anyways, so two teachers were in there and they started to talk about me. At first I thought that they probably didn't know who I was, but I had my name tag on and I also had papers on the table that said enrichment and extended (that is what I am in). They were not saying anything too bad, but they were saying that I better be good because the girl I replaced was so good and that their kids are having a hard time. It was just silly things, but I feel the pressure. The girl I am replacing is great so that is hard to come into an environment that is new and people are watching. I know I am a great teacher, but I am not like this girl at all. She is way more outgoing and I am a shy, quite person. Mary Beth, one of my old parents of my fave kids ever, told me yesterday that if anyone can do this I could. She said one of the things she loved about me was everyday I would have something to say about her child. Something they did or said. She also noticed that I did that with every child. She also said I have a way of sneaking up on people. Like she remembered when I started at Bright Horizons that I was just ok and soon after that I became this great teacher who she really trusted and believed I was giving her child a great start. I really appreciated that. The girl I replaced said I better be good because they cant afford to have people dis enroll from the afternoon program. That made me even more stressed and felt pressure. I know I can do, but it is also scary too.

I got thte job!!!!

I got that job to work with the kindergartners in the afternoon. I am very excited. I am so grateful to my heavenly father. I have been blessed so much this last month. At a time where people are being laid off and struggling to find jobs, I find one not even a week after I get laid off. I have been concerned about how I was going to survive with a part time job. My money has been lasting and now I will be considered full time and have benefits. I feel like I don't deserve this, but I know the lord is looking out for me and is helping me get through this rough time. I am really humbled by my blessings and so grateful for them. I have a great life and a wonderful family and now a wonderful job.

i am feeling a little mad

Today I just found out that they have replaced me in my old classroom. Although I am happy at the JCC and new opportunities are already coming, but I feel really screwed right now. I always knew this was not a layoff, but to be replaced a month after being laid off makes it more clearly it wasn't. I gave so much to that center. I worked hard and cared so much about that place and to have me pushed out that way sucks. The person they replaced me with was the two year old teacher and they put a person, who is nice, but has no experience in that room. So there are now two people in the two's with no experience. I have heard that room is not that great anymore. It breaks my heart that my old parents are being treated in this way. They don't deserve this crap. i don't know why I am feeling more screwed now than before, but I do. Anyways there is an opening in the afternoon shift with the kindergartners, which would be great if I could get it. I was loving teaching the older kids. 

Also in big new in Amy's life, I have a date on saturday!!! It is my first date in two and a half years. I am not that interested in this guy, I mean he read the Twilight books and discussed them with me, which I thought was a little girly, plus he doesn't have a car and he is in his 30s. Maybe that is snotty of me but I would like a guy who is somewhat stable. So I am forcing myself to get out. Though I still have strong feelings for Andy and I thought they would have faded by now, but they are still there. I figured I need to force myself out there to help with that. So wish me luck. 

I look good in this picture

Here is a pic of me with my sibs at Tricia's wedding. Don't we look cute. I actually think I look good in this photo, which I hardly do ever think that, so I put it up on here. Oh and Tricia looks gorgeous too. Oh and Becca. Oh and I guess Bryan and Jared don't look too bad.