Just got called to teach CTR!!!!

Yesterday I got released from nursery and called to teach CTR. I was pretty shocked because this class is preparing them for baptism. What a huge responsibility. I am excited though as I am in my early career in the primary.(my pat. blessing said I would have many callings with children.) So I am excited to teach those children as the prepare to become a member of the church and receive the gift of the holy ghost. I sort of remember me at that age. I remember the feelings I had that day and getting ready with my mom. It was an awesome day. Also yesterday I almost didnt go to church, but felt I had to go. Now I know why. Plus I needed to hear the lesson about being valiant. When the teacher said that the prophet Joseph Smith said something about being worthy to have such hard trials and how great that was. That struck me because I have been feeling like no one likes me and why even try anymore, but got this thought in my head that said, "stop feeling sorry for yourself and go and just live the gospel." It is such a true thing to remember. My life isnt that bad. I have a home, job, and a great family that loves me even though I am a mystery to them. Sometimes I feel like I cant do it, but I remember my dad. My Dad is a huge example because he was inactive for almost 30 years and searched for something to only come back to where he started. It takes a lot of courage to come back and very humbling. I am proud of him. Now he can give me blessings and has a temple recomend. So I guess I am saying that I figured out I can do it and just keep going. I am grateful for my life and the gospel. I dont know what I would do without it. Anyways I thought I would share that.

Things still just going.

So my life is good. Nothing really drastic going on. I have a week off and I am cleaning my room!!!! I know I am shocked as well, but I am sick of it too. Got my taxes done and I am excited that I am going to use some of my refund money to finally buy Rosetta stone so I can finally learn basic Russian. I am so excited. I know some Russian and can read a bit, but I am ready now to go the full yard. I haven't done so before because Russian reminds me of Andy and I needed to heal that part of my heart so I could do it without thinking about him. Finally!! I know that is what you are thinking. I am so excited that my nephew will be born in a few weeks. Maybe I can get this one to like me more instead of Aunt Bob winning with my niece. I am only second best, so maybe Seth will take to me. I seem to bond really well with boys. I am not saying I haven't bonded with Erin because I have. She just loves Aunt Bob more. The major thing I am aiming towards and is my major goal is getting my endowments. I had that as a goal, but things haven't gone as planned, so that is my main goal. Obviously that is where I need to go because things have just seemed to have gotten harder since I made that decision. OH and some major shocking news. I am finally getting a cell phone. I am finally giving in to that thing, but only a pay as you go thing. I rarely get phone calls and it will be better for my babysitting jobs. Becca is going to take me so I don't get tricked into anything because I have no idea about anything cellphone related. That is the update.
Wow, I really have a boring life.

My cute Bushka!

Here is my fave pic of me and Erin at her Birthday. Also of the throne I gave her, which surprisingly it took a lot to get her to sit in it. She is so darn cute. What a huge blessing she is to our family and I am looking forward to Seth being born for another great blessing for us. Oh, for those who dont know I call Erin Bushka, I dont know why. It just came out one day and stuck. It is not anything russian, but it kind of sounds like Babuska which is the russian word for grandma. I am not calling her that. Anyways theres some usless info for you.

Nothing much going on

I noticed I haven't put any posts on for a while and thought I would write a little, but nothing new is happening. I like my job and learning more about being a teacher each day. I have been blessed so much by the Lord as many of you know that I don't have to pay all that money to COBRA because my insurance kicked in exactly 63 days after my last. I am so grateful for that. I have been stressing about it for a long time trying to figure out what I was going to do. The Lord has answered my prayers and I am truly humbled by it all. My dating life well, I have been trying to more, but I really just have no desire. I wish I did because I need to date, but the guys who are attracted to me now are, I don't know, not my type. There is the guy at work who is really nice that flirts with me and I would go out with him once if he asked me, but would never be more than friends with him. There is the newly divorced for one month guy that has two kids. I don't think I am emotionally mature to handle kids, a ex wife, and a newly dating man. Then there is the Provo boy and most of you know I am no Provo girl. I am not bad and I have a strong testimony, but I am a very open minded, accepting woman. Then there is the guy in West Jordan who I am a little more interested in, but I don't think he is as interested. Maybe I am making up excuses or maybe I am right. I don't know. It is that my heart is just not that into it for some reason. Believe me when I say I wish it was because I need to get out there and start over, but I really just have no desire. Anyways that is the update for now. The most exciting thing coming up is my beautiful niece's 2nd birthday. She is so cute and brings a lot of joy in my life. I absolutely adore her!!!!

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I am stressed!!

So last Friday I was in the staff room at my new job. I had my ipod on because I work better with music. anyways, so two teachers were in there and they started to talk about me. At first I thought that they probably didn't know who I was, but I had my name tag on and I also had papers on the table that said enrichment and extended (that is what I am in). They were not saying anything too bad, but they were saying that I better be good because the girl I replaced was so good and that their kids are having a hard time. It was just silly things, but I feel the pressure. The girl I am replacing is great so that is hard to come into an environment that is new and people are watching. I know I am a great teacher, but I am not like this girl at all. She is way more outgoing and I am a shy, quite person. Mary Beth, one of my old parents of my fave kids ever, told me yesterday that if anyone can do this I could. She said one of the things she loved about me was everyday I would have something to say about her child. Something they did or said. She also noticed that I did that with every child. She also said I have a way of sneaking up on people. Like she remembered when I started at Bright Horizons that I was just ok and soon after that I became this great teacher who she really trusted and believed I was giving her child a great start. I really appreciated that. The girl I replaced said I better be good because they cant afford to have people dis enroll from the afternoon program. That made me even more stressed and felt pressure. I know I can do, but it is also scary too.

I got thte job!!!!

I got that job to work with the kindergartners in the afternoon. I am very excited. I am so grateful to my heavenly father. I have been blessed so much this last month. At a time where people are being laid off and struggling to find jobs, I find one not even a week after I get laid off. I have been concerned about how I was going to survive with a part time job. My money has been lasting and now I will be considered full time and have benefits. I feel like I don't deserve this, but I know the lord is looking out for me and is helping me get through this rough time. I am really humbled by my blessings and so grateful for them. I have a great life and a wonderful family and now a wonderful job.