life keeps going and i will become what i need to

Christmas was awesome. I have a wonderful family who i adore and feel blessed to have them in my life. Things are going up and down as i get over the last hurdle of understanding the loss i have felt these last few months. I truly trust the Lord and know things happen for a reason. I am looking forward and not back. i am learning I can not take things back from the past and the pain i have felt these last few months has taught me to be stronger. I just needed to know how to be stronger without going bitter, which i fight everyday. I know that going bitter will destroy me and i cant let that happen. It doesnt hurt as much as it did a few months ago, but it sadly pokes at me once and a while. This year I am going to grow more into what i can become and i know that the only way to do that is through the Lord. Looking forward to the furture and being the best i can be.