Wow, my life is pretty awesome. I have had 4 years straight of great happiness. Not going to lie there have been a lot of sad, hard moments, last July was a hard one, but all and all I have been really happy. People might say why are you so happy? You are still single, have no prospects in sight for marriage, you have had a lot of bad dates to the point that you don't want to date anymore, and you are still pretty poor, so what makes you happy? Yes, I still don't have a relationship that I do want one day or money to go travel and do things that I dream of, but still I am happy, no lie. I am now going to list what and why I think I have been so happy and for me this is all I need.
1. I have a great family. Yes I am the black sheep of my famdamily, but you know even though they say things that bother me or treat me like I am that silly crazy 16 year old still (which I haven't been in a long time), I still love them and appreciate them. We are all so different, some of us share the same beliefs, some don't. Some of us have things in common, some don't, but all and all we still love and respect each other for that. That is what a family does.
2. I can laugh at myself. We all know I can make a huge idiot out of myself without even trying. We have termed this, "Pulling an Amy". For reasons unknown, I say and do things that are silly, embarrassing, and well, sometimes very misunderstood. I know I can be just plain seen as an odd person at times. I am so grateful I am because it has taught me to not take life so seriously. I enjoying laughing at myself.
3. I know and have a relationship with my Heavenly Father and my Savior Jesus Christ.This I feel is one of the major keys to my happiness. I not only know of them, but I have a great relationship with them. I feel them in my heart and their hands in my life. I know without them I wouldn't be where I am today. Their love for me, their grace, and their faith in me is so priceless. I still don't know what it is they see in me and I hope to one day discover what it is they see. I feel knowing of their love for me and knowing they have a plan for me has truly made my life beautiful. If I can only convey or let anyone feel what I am feeling I would so you can understand what it is like. Words are never truly enough to express this love I feel for them and their love I know they have for me. It truly is life changing. The only way you can is by opening that door like I did.
4. I have hope in life and try to see the beauty in it. Even though life has not turned out the way I imagined as a little girl, (I didn't become a lawyer or I am not a mother yet), I still see that my life is of value. A lot of woman my age get sad that they are not married yet and feel of lesser value or something is wrong with them. I have had those thoughts briefly once, but I have pushed through those thought and realize that is not true. The Lord doesn't want me to settle with just anyone just to be married. He wants me to be with someone who is going to love me, treat me well, and work with me to become what He wants us to become. I truly rather be alone and have a great life (I know if I don't get married my life is still going to be great. It will just be different than most people), than me being married to just be married. That is not going to bring me happiness. I have hope that whatever happens in life I will be happy and I am of value.
5. The last thing I feel is one of the reasons I am happy is my love for the temple and The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I love these things so much. I feel this church is the complete truth of what God is, our purpose in life, and how to return to Him. I feel all church's are true, but this is the complete truth. How do I know it is you ask? Because when I do the things this church asks I feel the greatest joy and peace. There was a time in my life when I didn't do what it asked and I was sad and very depressed and not stable. Then I choose to give this church a chance and my life changed for the better. I am a happier person, more confident, and more at peace than I have ever been before. Plus since I started making going to the temple once or twice a week a priority in my life it has changed me and brought me closer to God. It helps me see the bigger picture. I truly have such a great love for it and wished everyone could feel what I feel so they could understand why these things mean so much to me.
So these are just the few major reasons why I am still a very happy person. I read a quote the other day that said, "Life isn't about trying to find yourself. Life is about creating yourself." George Bernard Shaw said that. I find that to be so true. That is what I feel God wants us to do, create ourselves to prepare us for what He has prepared for us in the next life. We choose how we choose to react to things, where we want to go and do, and the Lord guides us to great things. Life is beautiful.
