True Happiness is.......

I realized I know what true happiness is. Back story I will say quickly, so I have battled with depression when younger. I just was not happy with my life. So I know what if feels like to be sad a lot. The last year and a half I have been mostly happy and I discovered that true happiness is not being bubbly all the time or smiling a lot or being blissful all day every day. While those are feelings or actions of being happy, but they are moment feelings. The feelings that last only for a while that, unfortunately, fade. Then what is true happiness you are asking???? Well I feel it is peace!!! Having that peace inside truly is real happiness. To be at peace with life, who you are and where you are going is true happiness. The way I have felt this true happiness was letting the Lord, my Savior Jesus Christ completely in my heart. I lived a long time with kind of letting Him in, but it wasn't until I let Him all the way in that I felt this pure joy that I had never felt in my life before. That peace and comfort that only He can give is amazing. It doesn't mean that I don't ever feel sad once and a while about some disappointments in life, but I feel them and let them go. I don't dwell as much because I have learned that those disappointments happen so I can learn. Peace is happiness and I am experiencing it. Well that is another random thought from my brain that I have decided to share with whoever reads about my boring but wonderful life. Hope you have enjoyed and maybe discovered something great or discovered that this girl is really strange. Oh well I am happy being strange!!!!

New year New goals

Last year my goal was to make it to the Temple. Did that and received much joy by continuing to go every week. That was they only goal I had, so this year I have goals in different areas in my life. First spiritual goals are continue to work on recognizing the spirit. I am great at it when it comes to teaching in church, in my other calling, and knowing the gospel is true, but guiding me in my personal choices and life, not so much. Huge example, me feeling so strongly that Andy was my eternal companion. Don't know how I felt as strongly as I did and it not be right, so that has not helped me to trust myself and knowing what is right or not in my personal decisions. Anyways working on that as well in depth and enriching scripture studies. Physical goals to run a 5K in a few months and to finally get my eating habits stable so I can get the rest of this weight off. I work out everyday, but that is not enough for the last 30lbs, so food is the final key. As well giving up my beloved Dr. Pepper, tears are in my eyes about that. :) Being a better person goals are learning to listen. Those who know me I am a talker so I want to be a better listener. My friends have said that they love that I talk but I really think I should be better at listening because I want to be a better friend. Lastly, I need to work on not swearing so much. I go through spurts in my life where I swear a lot or not at all. Now it has gotten to the point that I am not aware I am swearing and that bothers me. My fave words are the S-word, B-word, an occasional A-word and the one I say the most, good hell. So I don't think that keeps myself in tune when I keep saying "good hell" or the s-word in the car, at gym is where i mostly say them, or sometimes in casual conversation. So those are my goals this year. Wish me luck and Happy New Year everyone!!!